Have I accomplished to be the “I”, I imagined being when I was small?
I am nervous and scared, but I don’t want to disappoint myself.

*Please read over several times to understand this.

邂逅カタルシス – Encounter Catharsis?
By: Nightmare




This part of the lyric reminds me of a question that goes, “How many people have made their dreams come true?” You know when you were small, everyone wanted to be a soccer player or a baseball player and stuff right? But the people who actually become that are like one out of thousand people. And when I was smaller I always thought, “Oh, how sad it is that only few people out of millions of people can make their dreams come true. Will I be able to be part of the few people?” Not until this person told me that becoming exactly what you wished for means that your dream came true. She told me that working as something related to, let’s say soccer, is also making your dream come true. I thought that was just an excuse to make yourself feel better for not being able to accomplish what you wanted. But now, I think I kind of understand what she meant. One changes as time goes one. Your dream when you were small is not necessary the true wish for your whole life.


Another thing that this lyric made me think about was, “what was I thinking about my future when I was small?” or even “what is my future image of myself?” And honestly, I can’t think of anything. I just felt like grabbing a cloud. I only have a blank image. Not even an image. It’s just white… Oh well, I will figure it out sometime.