Language

Language, is so vague and ambiguous, that even if you try really hard with sincerity to communicate with someone, there will always be a variance between the people you talk with. For example, when you use the word fish. One will think of a touch shark, and the other will imagine a goldfish. There is no way of arguing with this difference in the conception of the term. But unfortunately, we only have “language” to communicate. We just need to use this clumsy tool.


Sky-blue Hitchhiker, p.58




I always thought I would never be able to communicate with someone else completely. I thought that I would never be able to understand someone 100% and that no one would ever understand me 100%. So whenever I saw or heard about some kind of perfect unification in feelings, the ones that come out in friendship and love stories, I had this weird sensation, similar to the one that you feel when the puzzle pieces don’t much. But I didn’t know how to put those feelings into understandable phrases or words. And I really didn’t want to realize that I would never be able to grasp what the others were saying. Vice versa too, that no one would ever understand what I was saying. I probably felt that way strongly because I don’t have any first language. All the languages I know it’s so far away from complete, it’s like the distance between me and some other galaxy far far away. Even if I knew at least one language fairly well, I still wouldn’t have been able to express myself enough. Can you imagine how insecure you would feel if you haven't mastered any language? Not even one?

Well anyways, back to the axiom. I was so surprised and excited to physically see the idea I had over years. Watching the idea I couldn’t make it into a clear image, com into a simple phrase was just amazing.


By the way, I do know that my whole explanation and the quote are quite ironic. Since I’m saying, “Oh, it is impossible to communicate with some!” When I’m actually trying to express myself using the “words”, the tools to communicate, that I don’t believe it works.