I Had Something In Mind.

I had something in mind. But it was so vague, I just didn’t want to put them into words. I just gathered them up, I thought something really important will just fall off.

The Sky-blue Hitchhiker


When I hear about one's thought, it always ends up with an explanation of how important it is to put them into words. I mean, how important it is to express yourself. Well, it doesn't necessary need to be words, but the most common way of expressing yourself is by talking. Moreover, being able to explain it to someone else means you have that idea clear in your mind. So, I was quite surprised when I first read this part. I always believed that putting your thoughts into words was something extremely important that I should always be able to do. But this quote. It just. It just made me think over something I have never doubted. I sometimes thought, “Why can’t I just say this feeling that is inside me the way I feel it?” and then I answered myself, “Oh, maybe it’s because I don’t have enough ability to express myself. Maybe because English or Spanish or even Japanese, hasn’t settled down inside me enough that I would be able to say what I really want to say.” But after reading that unique quote, I just felt that I was able to see another reflection in the water. The reflection that keeps on changing. The reflection that never shows the right things. The reflection that looks so real.
Probably, the reason why I felt this uneasiness when trying to express myself is mostly because of the lack of my ability of communicating. But I believe there are some cases that I better not force myself to change it into words but just leave it and pretend that the atmosphere will take care of it.