In Between the Wheel of Time

I imagine that everyone has experienced some kind of pain that you have eventually gotten over with or left it behind in the piles of the routine. If you don’t put any special efforts or by putting excessive effort, anything can be forgotten. Everything can be washed out from people’s memory. I believe. And I think the axiom mentioned there is one of the best metaphors I’ve ever met about people’s memories.

“Or has the tree gone through enough seasons to erase the past?”
From Leaving Paradise, p.40


However, after reading Night by Elie Wiesel I realized there are some things that one can never forget. Or is there?

This Is More Or Less a Continuation of the Previous Entry

“Do you see this really really fading white that completes the circle of the crescent moon?”






My father asked me the other night. I didn’t have my contact lenses on and saw the crescent moon blurry. So I answered, “Yeah, well I don’t see the moon clearly but yeah I guess,” without thinking about it. But actually there is no ‘really really fading white that completes the circle of the crescent moon.’ It is pure imagination of the brain. I mean there is no light reflecting the dark part of the moon at all. Do you see how unreliable our brain can be?

Brain is our core organ to think, to make decisions. But our brain modifies the facts with the impression we have or with the previous beliefs we have. How did we end up being so unstable? Why have our brains developed this way? What can we do about it?

There are too many questions that are yet to be answered.

So Sad

“See? People don’t believe the truth.”
From Durarara episode I-forgot

This line was spoken during a conversation of two normal teenagers talking about this extraordinary thing that has happened to them. When the classmates of them began to ask, “What happened? What are you guys talking about?” One of the boys that experienced the ‘not-likely-to-happen-in-a-normal-life’ situation told them what has actually happened, while the other boy was disconcerted because his friend was telling the others the truth. Well, as you can imagine, the classmates didn’t believe what the boy was saying and left. It was then, when the line was presented.

But how sad is this? People only believe what they want or think it is true. Furthermore, the propagandas and commercials use this human behavior so neatly that they make people believe what is actually not true at all. I’ve always tried to believe what the others say even if it sounds unconvincing. But would I be able to believe if someone tells me they saw a Nessie? Or God? Or would I think that they were dreaming or tired or mentally ill? There is a saying in Japan that says, “Salvation will come to those of who believes.” (It’s not anything religious by the way. It is just a saying and there is no specific reference to what you should believe.) How sad will it be if I wouldn’t be able to believe what the other is saying when that person is actually saying the truth? But it is also true that the world is not always full of truths. One should be careful to not be fooled. Am I questioning all of these because of my youth? Is this a thing that I would notice it is no true when I get older? Or is it that I will be too brainwashed or tired to believe in such things? I sometimes truly don’t want to grow up.

Human Behavior

Sacrificing other things in order to protect one’s important thing.
Is this the source of the human behavior?
R.M. sacrificed ‘indifference’ for his dearest friend.
Y. T. sacrificed ‘himself’ for himself.
F.K. sacrificed ‘the place where she belonged’ to earn decision-making authority.
F. S. sacrifices ‘others’ for the life of the only person she loves.
From: The King of Nabari volume 7th

The line from Tao Te Ching about gain and loss reminded me about this line from the comic book The King of Nabari. This one mysterious character analyzes the action of others in the form of sacrifice and gain. All of them have different values and different pasts, but they are all related in a sense that they all are sacrificing something to gain the other. Have I done any sacrifice to fulfill my desire? Maybe I have. But have not considered them as “sacrifice”. I mean what makes thing “sacrifice”?

I would like to study human behavior some day.

Indescribable

“Stand before it and there is no beginning. Follow it and there is no end.”
Tao Te Ching Chapter 14

According to the book of Tao Te Ching, the great Tao is like air. It’s not describable as in shape, color or size. Why is this? It is probably because by giving it a specific description one will limit the possibility of that existence. I don’t know specifically what kind of limits. But I do have a feeling that its enigmatic form is what makes Tao so great.

Another thing I wondered off when reading this line from Tao Te Ching is an axiom from a Japanese cartoon called, “Baccano!” This character says,

“Be freed from the illusion.
Throw away that illusion, that tells you there is a beginning and an ending in a story.
There is no beginning in a story. Neither an end.”

From Baccano! OVA episode 3

This story actually didn’t have a firm ending neither a beginning. It began suddenly and ended in the middle of everything. There were no main characters. Everyone was the main and the sub characters. It is based on this novel about people who obtained eternity of life. Bunch of random people meet and say farewells. Just like how life goes. Each of them dealing with “eternity” in their own ways.

Random Thought

You are too sweet that I will get some cavity.

Are We All Alone?

If we are all alone,
Then we are all together in that.

From: P.S. I love you


“At the very end, one is always alone.” Is one the things I have been hearing my whole life. Along with, “One is never alone. Don’t forget about all the people around you.” These two beliefs say the opposite thing, but both of them seem to be true. I mean, even if we feel a strong connection with someone, it doesn’t change the fact that you guys are different people. Different people with different background, different daily customs and different personality. It may be possible to understand each other very well but not 100%.
But it is also true that all the people around you affect you in the same way that you affect them. They become part of your life and you become part of their life that it is no longer about you.

So the question is, “Why can these two different opinions coexist together?”

Is it because those two points of view are talking in different scale? Is it because the second argument that states no one is alone is true until certain point? Or does this opinion depend on one’s personality? Just like preferring to do sport or art? I am still not sure about the answer. Or which side I agree with. Maybe there might be a third argument. But for now, it seems that the opinion that says everyone is alone sounds more reasonable. To me.

Well, the quote listed above might be a third opinion. It made my heart go warm. How can someone come up with such a positive perspective. It. Is. Amazing.

Routine

If you really want to escape from the routines, you just need to keep on evolving. No matter where you are going for; up or down. So, just enjoy your daily life.

From: Durarara episode 12


Routine is what I am living with all the time. Every day, every week, every year. Even if there’s a new change, they become part of the routine in one month. Even the happiness can become a routine. Once it’s a routine, it is really hard to realize how grateful I should be. But what can I do? I am a young, teenage girl that is filled with desire to do fun stuff. Or is there a way to be appreciative and be filled with enthusiasm? Am I capable to enjoy my “daily life”? The more I think about it the more I have a feeling that I should be able to do both. Maybe, it’s not the matter of if I want to or not. Probably it is something I should do. But what can I specifically do to be both grateful and enthusiastic? Go over my day in my head? Take in all the opportunities I have around me? Be more matured?
It sounds quite challenging. And exhausting some how. But who knows? Maybe once I do it, it might lighten my day, you know.

I think I should begin doing it.

Knowledge.

Not being able to comprehend brings fear…that ignorance exposes you to danger…
Oh…But I know that the opposite is also possible…
I know that

knowledge

can brings terror.


Knowledge is something that can make you capable of dealing to many things. Therefore, it is vital to survive especially in the community we live now. However, I believe there is a limitation on the amount of knowledge one can absorb. When one swallows down too much, all the information inside will just spill out, just like water in a cup.
And it is also true that knowledge can discourage you from doing something. For example, if you didn’t know what they actually do when dentists say, “Take out your wisdom tooth” you may not be afraid that much. But when you know that that means, digging for your teeth that is inside your bone by cutting flesh and bone, you may feel the gross.
Can you see this situation about knowledge? That there is no clear answer but the color grey? Oh well, I will need to learn how to deal with those things.

Coffee Break.

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Let’s just say that those tedious time is like a coffee break to be prepared for the climax of your life.

From Baccano!

I just love quotes that talks about the dull hours you sometimes have in your day. It helps so much to think about those moments in a positive way! Especially when it’s unique like this one. Moreover, this quote has a way of thinking that is so positive, so moving ahead. And I just love those.

There are Three Types of Secrets.

There are three types of secrets.
One, because you really don’t want others to know about,
Two, because you can’t say it, even if you want to,
Three, because you are waiting for someone to ask you about it.

The King of Nabari, volume 5



An analysis on something is really interesting. There are quite several reasons to it. One of them is because you get to see another point of view. That will be a new discovery. But analysis is not only a new discovery about facts. It represents the thoughts of the others. And it is always exciting to hear those things because it “nurtures” your mind. Well, I mean, since those opinions are based on the experience or life of a person and their education, by hearing them, you can obtain more information than you can by yourself. Well, I guess this is a common sense that we all know, but if you think about it, it’s quite impressive. It’s like discovering why we can’t stand on top of a cloud. Well, actually it’s more like discovering how a rainbow works.

Anyways, I really loved this line because it provided me with another point of view of such a common thing I see daily.

I Had Something In Mind.

I had something in mind. But it was so vague, I just didn’t want to put them into words. I just gathered them up, I thought something really important will just fall off.

The Sky-blue Hitchhiker


When I hear about one's thought, it always ends up with an explanation of how important it is to put them into words. I mean, how important it is to express yourself. Well, it doesn't necessary need to be words, but the most common way of expressing yourself is by talking. Moreover, being able to explain it to someone else means you have that idea clear in your mind. So, I was quite surprised when I first read this part. I always believed that putting your thoughts into words was something extremely important that I should always be able to do. But this quote. It just. It just made me think over something I have never doubted. I sometimes thought, “Why can’t I just say this feeling that is inside me the way I feel it?” and then I answered myself, “Oh, maybe it’s because I don’t have enough ability to express myself. Maybe because English or Spanish or even Japanese, hasn’t settled down inside me enough that I would be able to say what I really want to say.” But after reading that unique quote, I just felt that I was able to see another reflection in the water. The reflection that keeps on changing. The reflection that never shows the right things. The reflection that looks so real.
Probably, the reason why I felt this uneasiness when trying to express myself is mostly because of the lack of my ability of communicating. But I believe there are some cases that I better not force myself to change it into words but just leave it and pretend that the atmosphere will take care of it.

People See Dreams to Organize Their Memories

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People see dreams to organize their memories.


From Durarara episode 7


Dreams, are so interesting. Though it is an enigmatic topic. It is full of mystery. Some people say dreams are an extension of your thoughts. Which means it represents your unconscious beliefs or wish. Others say that dream is actually a reality that happens and the reality we think is the dream. Today, I met to another interpretation about dreams: “People see dreams to organize their memories.”

This line, however, does not evoke my curiosity towards mysterious things. But it is interesting, as another point of view. Actually, what evokes my curiosity is not the word dream, but memories. I mean how does memories work or belong in your brain? When they “organize” it does it modify it into something you believe? How does organization of memories relate to dreams? I mean is, what we see when we sleep, made out from our memories? Like from our past experiences? Oh lord god, I am just so desperate to know about those things. But at the same time I don’t want to know the truth. I just feel like being ignorant to the non-imaginative reality and float in the world of imagination.

Gilgamesh.

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The life of man is short. What he accomplishes is but the wind. Where is the courage that you used to have?

Gilgamesh p.16



Gilgamesh. Now that I am reading the bible that uses an old language that I do not understand at all, I am beginning to appreciate the story of Gilgamesh. Any how, I remember that this line was said by Gilgamesh towards Enkidu, when they were trying to get the head of the monster that represents death that seems to have a nice character. Or, at least better than Gilgamesh who is an egoist. I am not criticizing Gilgamesh for being an egoist, because I believe that’s how most of the humans are, including me.

Back to the quote, I like the metaphor “what he accomplishes is but the wind.” We can feel and see some evidences of the wind, but it passes by so fast, one will never grasp the same wind ever. The actions we take will surely give consequences but our memories are sometimes so vague, that time can take it away from our reminiscences. However, I believe there are some exceptions too. I believe there are some events that people will never forget about, such as the Holocaust.

As a personal opinion, I like the guts of Gilgamesh when he said, “Where is the courage that you used to have?” Even if what they were trying to do was getting the head of a monster that is protecting the beautiful forest. And even if what they were trying to do might have been useless but dangerous.

I Saw a Dream....Wait...Was It a Dream? Or Was It Reality?

"The others think this is onlly dreaming. But they live in the dream, not us."

p. 335, A Great and Terrible Beauty



Have you thought about the world you live in?
The possibility of thinking that the reality we think
it's just a dream? Well, I have, and this quote
reminded me about it.
Have you ever played with barbies? with that mini-house of barbies?
You control the barbies and pretend they were alive.
I sometimes feel that we might just be like those barbies.
Thinking we are acting on our own, but actually just some puppets
of some greedy girl.
Or maybe I am just dreaming this whole time, and that what I think is
a dream, is my reality.
There would never be an answer to this somehow ridiculous question.
But isn't it just so . I don't know any words that will suit this
sensation. It's like being in wonderland, from Alice in the wonderland.

Stupid School...Is Not a Swearing Right?

All right. This has nothing to do with my blog theme, quotes, but I just need to write this down.

Apparently, Colombia or rather CNG likes to have holidays and decided to make April 5, 2010 part of the Spring Break. Even though April 5, 2010 is a Monday and Semana Santa is until, let me think. Sunday, April 4, 2010. I had no idea about this costume and have set my clock at 5:30 a.m. in the morning, even if I came back to Bogota yesterday at 12 o’clock p.m. Technically, that is not actually yesterday, but today.
Moreover, I have decided to put some sun block on for my first time in my school year because I thought, “Oh, maybe today it might be a show time of the lovely sun!” However, it was not, and it began to rain while I was waiting for the bus that will never come.
Fortunately, an extremely nice woman, who was a mother of some CMG kid in my apartment, told me that there was no school. I am sorry for those of you who I called and send a text message asking if there was school today.
Oh well, I will go back to sleep with my contact lenses on.

Mr. Feather

Mr. Feather
By: Ellegarden



*Lyrics can be obtained here↓.
http://www.uta-net.com/user/phplib/Link.php?ID=46108



I liked how the lyrics have a direct message to a specific person.
I got the impression that maybe the person who wrote this is talking to himself. It is sometimes useful to write down what you are thinking in a view point from someone else to make your thoughts clear. It’s not like have ever written it down, but I have done it in my head and. Well. It didn’t work out that well. But I guess for some people it does. The “MR.” that I like the most is the one of “Mr. Tiny, your dream is so big.”

Change

A: When I imagined that my life will be the repetition of the same thing everyday in the town that I live, I just couldn’t resist it. I know that it’s not about where you live. That it is the same everywhere. If you where in Tokyo, Oosaka, or New York. I know that it’s about me, myself.

B: Maybe yes, but I think changing place, will change the scenery you’ll see. There surely is people who can change by staying in one place. But not everyone. When you come to a dead end, just moving, or taking whatever action you want to make, can be a possible solution.

Sky-blue Hitchhiker, p.248-259


This line from the book Sky-blue Hitchhiker reminded me of my friend and my thoughts. I remembered the sensation, the tiredness I felt when I imagined myself doing the same thing everyday for the rest of the year. I tried to understand that these kind of normal and a little bit dull days were peaceful daily life called happiness, but apparently, it didn’t work. And I felt a little bit relieved when I read the part that said, “...but I think changing place, will change the scenery you’ll see.” I am really not sure how to describe this feeling, but I felt some kind of relaxation due to the thinking that I don’t need to feel bad for wanting a change, a drama in my life. It felt like a hot chocolate you drink in cold days, or better freezing days. Oh well, I would just need to conclude that my desire won my laziness to make an action.

Language

Language, is so vague and ambiguous, that even if you try really hard with sincerity to communicate with someone, there will always be a variance between the people you talk with. For example, when you use the word fish. One will think of a touch shark, and the other will imagine a goldfish. There is no way of arguing with this difference in the conception of the term. But unfortunately, we only have “language” to communicate. We just need to use this clumsy tool.


Sky-blue Hitchhiker, p.58




I always thought I would never be able to communicate with someone else completely. I thought that I would never be able to understand someone 100% and that no one would ever understand me 100%. So whenever I saw or heard about some kind of perfect unification in feelings, the ones that come out in friendship and love stories, I had this weird sensation, similar to the one that you feel when the puzzle pieces don’t much. But I didn’t know how to put those feelings into understandable phrases or words. And I really didn’t want to realize that I would never be able to grasp what the others were saying. Vice versa too, that no one would ever understand what I was saying. I probably felt that way strongly because I don’t have any first language. All the languages I know it’s so far away from complete, it’s like the distance between me and some other galaxy far far away. Even if I knew at least one language fairly well, I still wouldn’t have been able to express myself enough. Can you imagine how insecure you would feel if you haven't mastered any language? Not even one?

Well anyways, back to the axiom. I was so surprised and excited to physically see the idea I had over years. Watching the idea I couldn’t make it into a clear image, com into a simple phrase was just amazing.


By the way, I do know that my whole explanation and the quote are quite ironic. Since I’m saying, “Oh, it is impossible to communicate with some!” When I’m actually trying to express myself using the “words”, the tools to communicate, that I don’t believe it works.

Have I accomplished to be the “I”, I imagined being when I was small?
I am nervous and scared, but I don’t want to disappoint myself.

*Please read over several times to understand this.

邂逅カタルシス – Encounter Catharsis?
By: Nightmare




This part of the lyric reminds me of a question that goes, “How many people have made their dreams come true?” You know when you were small, everyone wanted to be a soccer player or a baseball player and stuff right? But the people who actually become that are like one out of thousand people. And when I was smaller I always thought, “Oh, how sad it is that only few people out of millions of people can make their dreams come true. Will I be able to be part of the few people?” Not until this person told me that becoming exactly what you wished for means that your dream came true. She told me that working as something related to, let’s say soccer, is also making your dream come true. I thought that was just an excuse to make yourself feel better for not being able to accomplish what you wanted. But now, I think I kind of understand what she meant. One changes as time goes one. Your dream when you were small is not necessary the true wish for your whole life.


Another thing that this lyric made me think about was, “what was I thinking about my future when I was small?” or even “what is my future image of myself?” And honestly, I can’t think of anything. I just felt like grabbing a cloud. I only have a blank image. Not even an image. It’s just white… Oh well, I will figure it out sometime.

I tried to find a butterfly that looked less realistic.




“If things never changed there wouldn’t be any butterflies.”

Author Unknown.



I honestly don’t like butterflies, so I really don’t care if they didn’t exist. However, I guess that’s not the point of this quote.
Okay, so I totally agree with this unknown author about the importance of “changes”. The constant born of new events is what makes life fun I think. I haven’t live long enough to say things like, “Oh, life is all about blah blah blah,” or “Do I don’t know what to enjoy your life.” However, I think changing is important. The desire that you want to be better in whatever thing is the fuel to take action. As said in Bhagavad-Gita, we can’t avoid action because “acting to do nothing” is also an action. So whether we want it or not, there will always be a change. Unless there is something really odd happening to the world.
Nevertheless, change doesn’t necessary mean a development or improvement. It can also be something negative. So even though I am truly aware that a “change” is important and unavoidable, I sometimes want to believe in words such as “forever”, even if it’s one of the words that I detest. Well, these are the things that I want it to be forever.
1. Friendship
2. Love of any kind
3. Objectiveness / awareness
4. Joyfulness
5. My favorite band
6. Memories
7. etc.
Unfortunately, there is no forever in the world I live and so it’s just a waste of time to think about them.
Okay, I guess I kind of went away from the topic and is becoming to be dull and long. So I think I will just stop here. Thank you for reading it until the end to whomever who is reading this and goodbye.

Another picture of my cousin's cat. It has nothing to do with the post.But isn't she so adorable?


“Life is hard.
Life is brown.
Because remember, it’s always harder to smile than to frown.”

By Mali




What does this quote make you think?

Does it make you relax that you are not the only one suffering?
Does it make you nod?
Does it make you realize about yourself forcing a smile when you want to cry?
Does it make you want to laugh because you don’t want to believe that “life is hard”?
Does it make you rewind the actions you have taken in your life?
Does it make you want to spit out all your problems that keep you away from “smiling”?
Does it make your mind go blank?


Well, my “Does it make you” are beginning to show its bottom line. And nothing else comes up to my mind. So I think I will stop it right here. See you later.

“Brain doesn’t come out with an answer”
“Some people are not smart even though they have big brains.”

These are not really quotes actually, but it was what our science teacher said in class. I honestly didn’t expect any of these to come out from her mouth, so I just needed to write it down. I know that I am a nerd. You don’t need to say it. I like to take notes during class, usually.
Anyways, I like this quote even though it’s quite offensive to some people who don’t use their brains. After hearing those two lines, I concluded that my science teacher likes brains. Okay, let me write about how I felt.




Honestly, I was only surprised and impressed with such an offensive in some ways but so true thing said by my science teacher.


Another random but really cute picture of my cousin's cat.

natural SOFT morning glory

Natural SOFT morning glory.

So I have decided to do something really different this time. I mean for the writing blog.
And what I came up with was write a short story based on a phrase I found on an eraser.

“Natural SOFT Morning Glory”

I would just warn whoever who is reading this thing that it will be random and probably not funny.


Once upon a time, when people still believed in angels, there was this human boy called Sethuis. Have you ever heard of that village called Allegora? That one made of crystals? No?... well anyways, he was living in Allegora with his sister. His parents have disappeared long time ago, when the angels came down on earth.
…………..

………….

………………

Okay, I am not an original person, neither a creative person. And nothing came up to my mind in this past…10 minutes, so I think I will do something else for the writing blog.

I want one beautiful past.

(This is just a random picture of my cousin's cat. Is that my cat was just passing by my room, so I was like how about I put a beautiful picture of my cousin's cat!!)




“I want one beautiful past…a past that I can be proud of! Only one is fine! I would be able to change from that point in my life! I will surely change!!!”

The King of Nabari, 2nd volume.


Well, this man wanted to change his past, so that he can change his future. He wanted an occasion to start a new life.
Anyways, this line suddenly came up in my mind while I was eating. I guess I was really bored, and I started asking myself, “Do I have any special past that I am especially proud of?” But I couldn’t think of any. I mean, I have accomplished certain things. Like in academics, in my hobbies or overcoming certain struggles. However, they are not something I am proud about. I think anyone has something like that. I believe it’s something that you accomplish by just breathing.
So, now I began to wonder, why did this man end up being like this? And the answer I came up was because he cared about the opinion of other too much. If I was always reproached by the people around me I would also probably end up like him. So I feel really grateful for the people I live with.

VIERNES!!

Viernes

By: Mauricio Rodriguez and Juan Vicente Zambrano

Viernes yo quiero viernes
Quiero viernes pa parrandear
Viernes yo quiero viernes
Quiero viernes pa ir a rumbear
Friday yo quiero Friday
Quiero Friday para bailar
Friday yo quiero Friday
Quiero Friday pa cha cha cha



So, this is a song that my friend gave it to me…last year for secret santa I think. And what this song says in general is that “I want a Friday!!” I guess most of you already know it since you know Spanish…but this is supposed to be an ENGLISH writing blog, so I will just write it to make it seem like I’m actually doing an English work.
Well, I like to hum this song in a Friday because it makes me…realize it’s really a Friday and that there is no school tomorrow. It’s like “Huh! You!!(←the school) have no control over me tomorrow!!! IN YOUR FACE!!!” …..Not really but…you get the idea right?? Yes? Yeah??.....ok no…forget it.
Anyways, I sometimes remember this song in a Tuesday and that is no good. I realize I am just starting my week, my long week, far far away from my Friday. Which is quite depressing in a sense.
But actually, Friday is not my favorite day of the whole week. The day I most like is Saturday. Because the happiness or joy from the day before still resounds inside my head. And also because I have one more day to do whatever I want to.

So, what is your favorite day?

Crying

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You know, I thought the time when you want to cry the most is the time when you need to work the hardest.
So, I decided to cry daily, to let it drop; the tears that I will shred when I most want to.
So that my tears would be dry when I need to work the hardest.

From Baccano episode 13




I found this line quite impressive. But please don't miss-understand. I am not in love of crying or any sort of it. It is just really smart of him if he really is capable of controlling his tears or emotions, just like a faucet. It probably is a way of self-controlling. Which I have never heard of. Since I always thought self-controlling as hiding your emotions.
Well, as I was reading the part of holding the tears and let it go another time, it reminded me of this story that I don’t remember what it was about nor the title. The only thing I remember is about this girl talking about a boy that is matured and calmed. One day she asked him, “Why are you so quiet?” or something similar to it. And the boy answered, “Because I am saving my energy for later on in my life.” So the girl thought, “But you can’t do that. The energy you have, let’s say, when you are 8 years old, is only useful when you are 8 years old. It’s not something that you can preserve. It’s like food. Eating a lot at breakfast doesn’t keep you well fed and active for the rest of the day. Unless you eat lunch or dinner."
I agree with this girl from this random story. So, as you can see, I personally don’t believe what the quote is saying about saving tears for later on but I like the idea of controling emotions.

One more last thing I want to say about this quote is one of the reasons why I liked the idea of this line. It is because I once heard that one of the most important skills to live successfully is the ability of letting your negative feelings and frustrations out. Just like a balloon. Never blow it too hard and let your self explode. And I guess this thing about the tears can be one of the ways to release air from you own balloon.

I want to share this story that reminded me of this quote from Rousseau.

It’s about this boy called “Hagi” that lives in a society in which has a strict social class.
He is the one of the families from the lowest social class called “Kusagi”.
So…I guess I will begin telling part of the story.

………

“Yes, we are Kusagi. But does that mean starving is something that cannot be helped since we are Kusagi? Does that mean not being able to drink a medicine when dying because of a disease; is something we just need to accept? We, the Kusagi, live just like the others in the upper class.”

“Hagi…you…….
Stop it. Don’t you dare say that again. We are Kusagi. We just needs to accept and follow the destiny of Kusagi.”

………

I think this story really represents the quote “Man are born free, but society corrupts man,” by Rousseau. Why? Because the characters in this story are tangled up with rules and social classes. They are limiting their abilities and way of life in order to survive in the community. I wish that there was a way for all the people to live proud and joyful about their life.
But anyways, about the society corrupting human souls, I think I have seen the effect during the trip to the amazons. Several of the people became more positive and less affected by the peer pressure from society. And, I was one of them. I think I was able to become more opened and active.

Life.....

" 'Life is fun' say that ten thousand times a day.

Your head will go crazy and you would forget about all the pain!!"



From Baccano! episode 14


There are times that you are tired, bored. You do nothing but stare out and make your mind go blank. That when I repeat this quote over and over in my head: “Life is fun…etc.” It makes you laugh and feel better.
I’ve heard many times that “there is no useless time in your life.” Probably that’s true. Probably it is something said from experience. But this doesn’t help my boredom go away. And whatever meaning this time will have in the future, I want to have fun, if possible, all the time. I just can’t stand doing nothing because I have no more option.

about...memories??

Yesterday, I just remembered this conversation from a book that is about a couple. Let’s suppose the boy is B and the girl is G. The talk starts with the girl, G, saying,

G: “Let’s go to every event this summer, and make many many memories.”

B: “……I don’t like the word ‘memory’.”

G: “Why not?”

B: “Because……..Do you remember that story we read in school?”

G: “Which one?”

B: “The one of ‘What was the Color of the Dress of that Girl?’”

G: “Mmm…..No…..I don’t remember.”

B: “It’s about this two girls, …lets call them A and B, talking about their childhood.
And they ended up talking about this drawing exhibited in the hallway of their school.
A drawing of a girl picking up flower behind a red sun set…..

Are you sure you don’t remember?”

G: “No…..I have no idea which story you are talking about.”

B: “Well….the story goes on…..
And girl A says, ‘Oh yes, that drawing of a girl with a yellow dress?’
But then girl B says ‘No, the girl had a dress dyed with the color red of the sun set.’
Girl A says, ‘No way! The dress was shining in the sun set, bright yellow!’
Both of them didn’t give in their opinion; Yellow! Red! Yellow! Red!.

So they decided to go visit the school.

‘What would the color be?’”

G: “What color was it????”

B: “There was no color. It was a black and white drawing.
The dress was colored in black.
But the two girls, A and B, believed there was a color to that dress.”

“Can you see how inaccurate the memory’s of a man can be?
Putting colors to something blank, dramatizing, beautifying.
Giving something more than reality.”

“That’s why I don’t believe in ‘beautiful memories’”

G: “Then what do you believe in?”

B: “You!! The ‘you’ standing in front of me right now.”



From "We were there" 4th volume.


When I first read this comic book, I was shocked. I mean I have never thought of memories in such a way. I always thought memories as a precious collection of jewelries or something. It was the only thing where you can use the term “forever” since for sure past will not change ever. Before reading this, I wanted memories. Small pebbles that I will be collecting to decorate the white and wide paper I have. Probably, the fact that I move every three years made me be more intense about obtaining evidences that shows I once existed in that place. But now I am not as confident as before about wanting memories.

"No one needs to say sorry.


Each of you just tried to protect what you wanted to protect.


.....it's simple as that."



From Gintama (銀魂) 15th volume




Just imagine, after a fight, someone says this to you.

I would feel so relieved as if all the weight on top of me has been pushed aside.

And a fight that no one is actually bad is actually something quite common: A fight

or problem that when you notice you are involving the people around you.

But I think it is a really hard thing to do. I would want to be able to have such a

big heart some day.

mmm..about attitudes...

"Your self-sacrificing is after all one of your self-satisfactions."

From : Pandora Hearts episode 18.


This line was directed towards the main character by this secondary character that didn’t know anything about the main character’s struggle, past nor belief. It was just after an event in which the main character tried to give away his life for his sister. And I think these lacks of information about the main character enable the secondary character to say his line without hesitate.

Anyways, my interpretation of this line is "take more care about yourself because there're people that love you and that need you." I was impressed to hear this line because it overlapped with my opinion about “heroes” that only look at their fames after all.

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